I was on a flight recently with a mother and her three daughters. The two older girls were around the ages of 10 or 12 and the littlest one was maybe a year. I boarded the plane with what felt like the weight of the world on my shoulders. I’m used to being on my own most of the time, but it can be bad at times for us over-thinkers.
As many do when they’re quiet, I started playing recent scenarios in my mind that I desperately wished could be undone, situations that were beyond my control as well as planning for a future agenda. It was a toss up between beating myself up over terrible decisions, feeling sorry for myself that life never seems to go as expected and telling myself I’m completely useless. You’ve been there, admit it. The devil enjoys playing on our emotions, especially when we’ve failed in some area.
My thoughts kept being interrupted by the baby who was not happy to be flying along with the chatter of the older two. Half lost in my thoughts and half annoyed by the restless baby, I began to pray: “God, it seems You are always having to put me back together. WHY does it feel like I’m constantly falling apart?! You seem to speak the most when I’m in my darkest place. I really need you to speak to me right now.”
I went back to the “hole” of my thoughts and kept telling myself to just take a nap. Then I heard one of the girls singing a familiar song to all of us to calm her crying sister...”Jesus loves me this I know...Yes, Jesus loves me..yes, Jesus loves me...”
Tears started welling up in my eyes. “Yes, Jesus loves ME. YES, Jesus LOVES ME.” God will speak when we ask Him to. Sometimes comes in the most unexpected, simple ways. I think at times that God has to let us spin out of control to show us that He is the one and only true peace. And not everything you lose in life is a loss. Remember that.
Many of you can quote Psalm 23 but read it again now. “The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.”
Your troubles may be different than mine but lets allow the Lord to restore our souls today. Why don’t you find a mirror, look yourself in the eyes and sing Jesus Loves Me until you believe it. Remind yourself that you’ve been bought with a price. He loves you always.